stella martinez gets a job

God, I have been away for so long. Anyway... got the Grand Junction job which, of course, is great but winning any competition raises the question in my mind... why is our culture, our world structured on winning and losing? When did this paradigm come on the human scene? You think the first cave people, while out hunting for that wooly mammoth dinner special, made a distinction between the tracker and the shooter? No doubt. You can't survive on tracking dreams... you need the hard fact of calorie count to get a tribe through the winter .... so thus begins the paridigm ...then the Athenians, Spartans, Incas, Mayans polish the concept and Western civ securely embeds it onto the double helix of our genetic coding which eventually leads to millions of job opportunities for therapists who spend all day attempting to remedy the affliction of being a loser. As Casey Stengel puts it, "Without losers, where would the winners be"? See what I mean?

While I was relishing in our prospects of creating two murals I was also mourning for the other contender .... even though his proposal was tragic and would have done a huge disservice to the community to have installed it...I still felt sad for him... knowning oh too well that gut wrenching punch that comes from rejection. Rejection is to the human spirit what rain is to a down quilt.... smothering... and either you drown from the weight of it, move to another climate where you don't need it or get real comfortable snuggleing up with the dank.... which has its own set of limitations so you invest in anti-fungal creams, mold minimizers, plastic sheets, pray for a warm sunny day to air out.... it's exhausting.